I feel this.
The new year blues perhaps. It’s not really depression, it’s a kind of world weariness that is fed up with the daily routine, people, relationships, current affairs and suffering all around, Even the joy and sweetness of life that is not available to most, feels faded and stale, and tasteless. A body that is not your own. The brain is paralysed into an ennui. Life and people don’t feel interesting. There is nothing that attracts my soul passionately. I feel everything is tried and tested with same old results. It is a game I have played far too long !!